END OF 2008

year 2008 just ended this way, supposingly go out with jennifer, but she went dinner with her sis, and my problem, TRANSPORT problem, 11 sth in the morning, my mom called me and told me that pyramid aldi very jam, and gonna to block the road at 6, i say c how 1st, then i continue to sleep... later, jenn told me she is going out with her sis, cos her sis had booked a place for her... actually one thing i m not happy was, the night b4, i told my mom, i m going pyramid to count down, cos my i m gonna 19, i must at least enjoy once for my yr 18th, u noe what she said? so what, u no need to eat and sleep ah? i really get very fed up, then started to say no one to fetch me home this and that, i just keep quiet, cos i really lazy to talk to her anymore....

this morning with the call, she even ask me to bring jenn to my shop to celebrate, then i said jenn is going out with her sis, even if she is not oso i won ask her to come, cos the ktv is oly full of uncle and aunty, even i cant really tahan de, how to bring her there? and today, everyone asked me why i nvr go out with frens, why i stay there, i just pointed at my mom, then they started to talk to my mom, ask her why don let me go out, she say she let me go out, just i don wan oly, hahaha, what a funny joke, yes, she nvr stop me from going, she just say its very jam till cant get in, then gonna block the road at 5, and ask me to bring my fren there, is this consider as stoping me from going? i dono la....

everyone can c that i m not happy tonite, except my mom, actually i m seriously not happy, cos even my 14 yr old cousin went sg wang to count down, but i still stay in my shop, hahaha, and one aunty that stay in subang say the road to pyramid din close, i just speechless, maybe my mom get the wrong info from her customer, or maybe... i dono.... i tried to keep my unhappiness in my heart and smile to them, but still they can c my emo face, my mom keep on asking me m i not happy, of cos i cant say yes, i jsut say no, i dono y, oways ppl noe how to c my face but she cant, she even tot that i m not happy bcos i have to work tmr morning, she oways say she understand me, is she? she ask my dad y ask me to stay in the shop till i m not happy, my dad said he nvr, she is the one who wan me to stay there....

i even feel wanna cry sitting there, so i try my best not to think so much, i m the youngest there! can u imagine? how to enjoy? how to be happy? seeing everyone drunk, dance and sing, but me, just sitting there and do nth, like a stupid, one aunty gave me a beer, i just drink a bit, then my mom take a coke for me, i really dono wanna laugh or cry, a bit of beer is ok for me, but she scare i cant go work tmr morning, i dono i have to continue this kind of life for how long, maybe shud say in the other way, i dono how long i can stand this kind of life....

MY YEAR 2008 JUST ENDED THIS WAY