DISAPPOINTED

supposingly i am uploading videos and pictures

of T MUSIC FESTIVAL concert

but i delete them

and decided to write something else

because i feel sad after i watched this concert

other than this concert

i am suppose to go for a wedding dinner

my cousin's wedding dinner

my cousin stay in KL

but my aunties stay in Johor

they purposely come back for the dinner

but what i did?

i went for the concert instead of the dinner

actually i was inform for this dinner one week ago

at first i decided to go

i will represent my family to go

cause my both parents are busy

but then on wednesday

my mom decided to go for this concert

then i told her

the concert held the same day with the dinner

she was a bit drunk

she say will go and buy the tickets the next day

don't know the ticket still available or not

the next day i ask her again

she told me the same thing

who knows there are still a lot tickets left

and we got to go for the concert

then i ask her again

are we really going for the concert

she say yes

since we bought tickets already

she say ask my 5th aunty to represent us

then i ask her to talk to my aunties

cause i really don't know how to tell them

the reason we are not going

on friday night

my 2nd aunty called me

[ the bridge's mom ]

cause she can't get my mom

i said she was busy

call her later

when i reached home

i told my mom

then she called back

i thought everything will be ok

she will tell her that we are not going

just now

my 5th aunty called me

only i realise

my mom told the 2nd aunty that

she will go to her house in the morning

she say she will definately going to her house and the dinner

and you know what we did yesterday?

we went pyramid for shopping

and go for the concert at night

she forgot what she promised or what?

i really don't know

since she doesn't decide to go

why she want to promise them?

and that is her sister

her niece's wedding

a concert can be more important than that?

and the problem is

she already know that there is a wedding dinner

why she want to promise someone else to go for concert?

which is not important at all!

how will the relatives look at us?

everyone was looking for us

cause it is not easy to gather all the relatives together

because some stay in Johor

some in KL

and she say she will definately going

people keep a table for us!

the table is empty

how disappointed they are

my 5th aunty told my 2nd aunty

that my mom was busy

and i went for concert

she never tell that my mom went for concert too

cause she doesn't want to add oil on fire

if i know she talk to my aunty like that

i rather waste the ticket money

and go for the dinner

i really don't know how to face the relatives

how can she make people such disappointed?

i really can't understand

what is she doing?

what is she thinking?

what happened to her?!

whats wrong with her?!

if you don't want to go is not a problem

but don't promise them and disappoint them!

not only them

i am so disappointed with her

is that my mom?

she is no longer who i knew.....

ps: 不是你改变，而是我从来都没有认识过真正的你……